Wednesday, April 30, 2008

One Year Later...

... we find our heroine sitting in her apartment, furiously pecking away at her keyboard because she still hasn't learned how to touch-type. One year later, she is still in school, pursuing her undergrad degree, although she now has a sense of urgency that never existed before her 27th birthday. She gazes around at her surroundings, fondly reminiscing about the day she moved in, one year ago.

She silently catalogs the minor shifts and changes that were never made.

"Those curtains still need to be lined."
"The front hall's closet door is still broken."
"That picture still needs to be hung."

She notes the changes that were made, and she is quietly triumphant.

"I like that new bedspread."
"Those flower boxes are nice."
"I'm so glad I changed that rug."

Minor accomplishments and small defeats color her memories from the past year of existing in this residence. She is still single and lonely. She still smokes more than she'd like to admit. She has learned more than three chords on her guitar, but she has retired the keyboard (for the time being). She has switched jobs three times and changed her name once, only to change it back, almost immediately. She has cultivated a love for cooking and cleaning, though she still loathes doing her dishes. She eats better. She laughs more. She wakes up early and remembers birthdays. She writes regularly. She hates what she writes semi-regularly. She makes attempts to get paid for writing, but she is convinced that everyone else hates what she writes also.

She has lived in this apartment for one year, today. For the moment, she is pleased with the past year and is looking forward to another. She wishes they hadn't raised the rent on her. This next year had better be worth it. She expects it will.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

ahhhhh.....to reflect.

Now, that's something I DO admire in someone. I know I don't do it enough....even though I know I have heard before "that Mark, he's always thinking only of himself"....hahaha. Maybe that's not the same thing.

Yes, making those mental notes of where we were just 6 months or a year ago. Maybe we should even go further for those of us who are losing brains cells at an alarming rate these days.....take a nice pic every May 1 (it's May Day, you know) and scratch down a couple random thoughts and numbers. Like, how we feel, our "happiness quotient, things accomplished (and not), battles won (and lost), kind words given. Maybe turn it over should you want to list any more private accomplishments...whatever seems important.

Then, plaster it on the frige and let it be until the next "reflection period"....might be a good thing. Of course, a good friend might be even a better barometer. But you have to be careful...sometimes closeness results in a distorted, even if kinder, reflection :-)

Getting back to the point though, I think this she....this Sam-Shama person would see lots more good things in that reflection most times. Sometimes you have to let the waters calm a while for you to see all the detail in that reflection staring back at you. Remember, life's is a 15-round main event.....not a 3-round sprint.

Enjoy what you see in that reflection....it's probably a good thing happening.

Mark

PS...of course, WHAT DO I KNOW !!!

Anonymous said...

......and.....what's-a-matter-with-jou.

Get out the screw driver and fix that door and tap a nail in the wall to hang that pic......MAKE ME PROUD :-)

You only have 364 dauys left till next "reflaction".

Anonymous said...

Dear Heroine,

On this 3.5 month anniv. of your sudden departure from that fine, breakfast cereal / gourmet eatery Glenn's, I still wonder what great accomplishments you could have had were you to have stayed and honed your skills on Honore.

Impressive entrances and exits to and from the kitchen.....you have lost these !! Seamless transitions from CoCo-Puffs to crab legs.....never to be seen again. And yes, mastery of the newest, fastest techniques for taking an order while keeping the umbrella from flying down Montrose...all lost..............forever !!

HOW COULD YOU :-)

(saw my old, yellowing copy of the Trib today...and the Ravenswood Flood article...and thought of the good times :-)

M

Anonymous said...

WOW..........and I can see it may be ANOTHER year until we see another posting from you Sam ;-)

Just kidding, HOPE you are laying on some sandy beach somewhere.

Mark